And to keep having the fond hope they might actually be supportive is to beat an already dead horse.

Just venting here.

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I had a rough patch this summer, as some of you might recall in August I was a missing person, made the local papers as I was “lost” on a mountain for a week and made my way out and got myself to a hospital where I spent 10 days in the emerge trauma and recovery ward.

I had some un-foreseen expenses and now I am working on paying them off.

This has been October so far…

So I shared a few things that I am doing in an attempt to have a kick Start of a “Phone 4 Life” service with a one time payment that via a sales channel I can offer at a steep discount but only until January 31st 2025.

I was just looking for some kind support for a side hustle, all I asked was please like and share my new website link.

Not one person liked or shared what I posted or messaged them.

Moving forward…
Working on getting debt free I just publish a small DIY book on Amazon. The book launches at midnight or October 31st. No one, not one person liked or shared it yet.

My church group where I know anyone who is a member gets a notification of group posts, it is small and not a busy group. No one even had it in them to even click the Laugh button let alone the like button about my book launch or share the post in an gesture of christian charity.

Is this just me because? I think it might be so but I know it can’t actually be true…

When someone you know is launching a business, having a garage sale, having a fundraiser, some event in the city or with / at the church. or posted something on Facebook market place and asks us to share it in hopes it sells faster like their car, I tend to like and share it and also leave a sticker comment to let them know they have been heard.

I feel let down, and upset about it, and actually frustrated to the point of being truly annoyed.

I get it, not every one is going to see the post, and not everyone is going to care about what I share or they may even think it is crap.

I am just floored by the lack of support, to have not one person like what you posted.

One of the things that is most conflicting is the DIY book sales are going to in part be used in maintaining out reaches in the DTES of Vancouver, Canada Poorest Postal Code.

I do not fund raise and beg people to help, I also do not get a pay cheque from our non profit church. One of the reasons no one cares to really know what is going on with me is because I do not plaster over social media the good I might be doing and exploit addicts and the mentally ill by filming my interactions with them.

I was in and contributed to a documentary about the opiod crisis in Vancouver, we won 28 awards around the world including best documentary and even then I would share what our producer would share on Facebook every time we received another film award. No one much cared and few even bothered to give a like to what I shared, they certainly did not share any of it to their walls. No one. Staggering to think about such consistency of apathy and showing me that I am just not worth the effort of a two clicks of the mouse or two taps of the finger to like and share.

It is asking too much…

So Amazon inside of the publishers panel suggested I share the following with friends and family etc on social media.

“My Debut eBook Launch!

I’m thrilled to announce the launch of my first-ever Book, “Green Clean Conquest”-Blah Blah Blah”

Boy do I feel like a chump and let down.

I think Tomorrow I am cutting a few ties on Facebook and some people in my circle and saying to them when you want something from me call me directly, I am not going to pretend any longer I am not just another resource for you and the Facebook Friend term is just a word used on Facebook and does not accurately describe our association.

I am done being humiliated by folks, I should just accept reality and not be humiliated by it by having fonder expectations of others.

<— That’s basically how my network of Facebook “acquaintances” treat me.

And to keep having the fond hope they might actually be supportive is to beat an already dead horse.

Moving on… This is a video I just took about an 1 1/2 hours ago.

You can hear her say “Thank You. Thank You, God Bless.” I turned off the phone when she lifted up her head. I said I just took a video of your cart and signs when you where tucked into your hoody. I said I did not want to film her face and that I was only taking a video to make a point about how I am not going to video at the drop of a hat of me being kind to show it off to get support for reaching out. I said you are the only one all day that said God bless you to me. I told her I live just a blocks away from here and how much I truly appreciated her kind words.

This was tonight and when I got back home from the grocery store I say no one throughout yesterday, last night or all of today liked, shared or comment on me being a new Author or my new book launch. I though to share it with people on facebook and remind them I am asking for some support and to remind them it is not just about me. But I feel it is so manipulative and contrived and I do not want to do that.

I have had enough slaps on the cheek to now just turn away altogether from such acquaintances.

End Rant.
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